I'm Sorry

I'm sorry because this is going to be another venting post. I'm also sorry because this post is going to be continually apologetic (ironic). The reason I'm not making a "Reason I didn't post last night" post is because there is no real reason I didn't, other than pure laziness. For that I'm sorry. I was tired after playing Left 4 Dead 2 and decided to head to sleep.
I didn't really do much last night though, a Friday night. Went to dinner, played the aforementioned L4D2. There's something I feel like I need to say when it comes to this though, and it deals with my friends, some of whom may or may not actually see this post. For those of my friends who are in college and dig the party and spontaneous lifestyle... I'm sorry, its not how I roll.
Let me elaborate. I have a friend who spent his first semester of college this past fall away at school, most likely having a very "good time" (he's been known to do that). Well, he had to come back to town and commute like me, this semester, I won't get into why, I don't even really know. You could tell he was bummed about it though. Especially at the thought of the option of hanging with me and a couple of other people around me. We're low-key, we don't party much, especially me, and there's not a lot to do around here for college students. Quite a culture change from the lifestyle he had last semester I would think. So needless to say, its a letdown for him. Another friend came back yesterday for the night and morning and its kinda a similar situation with him, and as far as I know it was a lame night for him, at least by his standards for a Friday I'm sure, this is assuming he didn't find anything to entertain himself after I saw him. I could be wrong. Either way, the fact remains I did nothing to help the entertainment plans of my 2 friends, and haven't really lately. For that I'm sorry... but at the same time... I'm not. This is who I am. I have no problem spending a Friday night in, just hanging out, playing PS3 or listening to music, or something. I'm completely content with it. It makes me feel completely and totally lame in relation to them, but oh well. I can't help it, and I won't change.
So what's the point here? Once again, I don't really know (kinda a recurring theme here), but its probably just to describe this discrepancy I feel within myself, and the discord with my friends. I'm sorry it takes different situations for us to feel content, but that's the way it is. I don't know what else to say about it. Just that its really lousy I don't socialize with them at a very opportune socializing time (if that makes sense). You'd think we could take advantage of it, but don't because we don't see eye to eye. And I guess its that part of it that I'm really sorry about.
And lastly I'm sorry for this non-opinion based posts, they have to be really irrelevant to people not involved at all.